Art by Jess Nguyen

yesterday i went to bed with a belly full of grief 

i dreamt about my best friend and my mum and 

someone i met at a party two and a half years ago whose name

i don’t remember 

i dreamt about my childhood bedroom that wasn’t

mine because the bedsheets were tucked in at the sides 

i dreamt i was smaller 

i dreamt i went swimming 

in my dream i was an only child and in the pool i floated 

my belly bobbing at the surface 

 fingers pruned with time spent 

another adaptation i did not choose 

i closed my eyes and the sun disappeared 

at night, the world is quiet and no one needs anything

last night i dreamt i was pregnant and in love 

today i woke up hungry 

and tried my hardest to remembe